Ace Of Spades wrote:
Got my first job today...normally that'd be happy news, but I'm really nervous about starting. I'm the kind of person that is absolutely terrified of failure and I really, really don't want to screw up...just thinking about it is making me feel ill.
I know exactly how you feel. Just do your best and you'll probably do fine! The people who screw up the most are the ones who don't show up, show up late, don't work, show up drunk, or smoke weed at work... all can be avoided by just giving a s***!
In high school, I was one of four valedictorians. I feel as if there's an unspoken rivalry between us to see who will do best after high school since we were all equally successful back then.
Just talked to the mom of one of these people...the same girl who "beat" me in AP English by being the only person to get a 9 on an essay (the highest possible grade) in our two years of AP. Somehow, we both became English majors. She only has one more year but I have two, and her mom just informed me that she's thinking about getting her Master's. F***!! I was thinking about getting my Masters! I know it's not a competition, but it would be nice to have achieved something the others didn't.
Plus, for reasons I won't say, I feel like the black sheep of the 4 valedictorians. I feel the need to prove my worth as a person by excelling academically. It's stupid, but it'd make me feel better at our 10-year reunion if I was the only one to get a grad degree or publish a book or something
Pressure's on, here we go!! Junior year coming up, let's do it!!!
“If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?”